One almost done, another to go!!
The peak which every auditor detests is here and mine is going to stay with me till the end of April. The peak would mean more late nights, lesser sleep, darker eye rings, lesser TV time and no life. Arghhhh.. Hope it ends fast..

First engagement was M1, a 2 weeks job. Din really started off well. All my seniors left and I was the only continuity. Was quite relief after knowing boss booked another senior on the job, but only for a week. On the first mon, my senior misheard my question and told me that she tendered. I really got a shock out of my life.

Worse thing was, my new senior was double-booked. She din have the time to come down to client’s place which i understand it’s not her fault, just that I feel so helpless without her. It was as if I’m the teamleader on the job. I had to answer my assistants’ questions, liase with client and report to boss. Was super duper stress. Really can understand how seniors feel.

First week, there was 4 of us. Second week, Darren left on mon and weiqi left on thurs, so only left dian n myself. Throughout the whole engagement was alright, everyone on the team did their very best and supported me.

Then came last Saturday night, I finally broke down. I couldn’t control my emotions and started crying. I kept thinking that I din do a good job, I disappointed my boss, I’m plain stupid, I din have enough knowledge on FRS and overall, I’m not a good teamleader. All negative thoughts started to overwhelm me.

Dian was shocked to see me crying n came over to comfort me. It took me a while to calm down. Then boss came over to ask if everything’s alright. Before I started to answer, tears started to roll down again. Boss patted my head and comforted me saying that I’m doing well and everything’s going fine. It’s a total embarrassment to cry in front of boss. But I couldnt help it.

Now I’m on a new engagement. Think it’ll be as worst, only good thing is, I’m well protected by a few seniors, so prob not as stress.

On a happy note, I attended jay’s concert on fri. My first time attending concert. The atmosphere was good and all the fans were very high. Enjoyed myself totally but wasn’t very satisfied cos the whole concert seems quite short, only 2 ½ hrs. Cant get enough of him. The next time he comes, I definitely would want to see him. Hopefully it’s not another 3 yrs. That’ll be a long wait.* my dreams_ 1:42 AM